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I thought I am ok...I am not being affected by you anymore....I believed that I am ok, even I still have feelings for you, but it's nothing more than just a transition period...

You were never there...never in my life.... never did anything special for me ...and with all the still unanswered questions, all the bad excuses you gave me..nothing that would have kept me from moving on, so why is it that i can't get you out of my head? What's holding me back?

With all the wonderful things and people happening in my life right now, why do I still feel so depressed?

I was so sure that I am ok now, I made myself believe that I'll adjust well to seeing you as just a friend.

Going over hyper and crazy not like my normal self, I thought I was just having fun with everything happening around me and moving on from the feelings for you.

I thought I am ok, I thought I adjusted you as a friend well....at least before yesterday....before she said that just from the card, she could see that I still have a strong feeling for you.

Why does it feel like an over blown balloon finally burst?

But there's nothing you did that could have lead to this strong feeling....really nothing that should have hold me back.

Or is this all just another shitty moody periodical period.

Or maybe I really need someone new to get me out of this mess.


I still think you caused this whole mess....